I don’t know…




I don’t know if I want to go home,
To the place that once was my own.

I don’t know what my children will say,
I’ve been so bad while I’ve been away.

I feel their anger and fear,
And I don’t want their tears,
Don’t know if I want to go home.

I don’t know the prices I will pay,
What price the demons that you slay?

Will she be waiting for me?
Longing for me, dreaming of me?
Praying I’m coming back to her,

I don’t know if I‘ll live or I’ll die,
But I know I want to see you for a while.

Yet the wheels of my car
Are carrying me far,
Telling me I’ve got to go home.

I don’t know if I want to go home,
To a place that was once my own.

2005

Dole Life

Life on the Dole,
Isn’t funny.
Bags of time,
Never any money.
Wife and kids,
No-where to turn.
Life’s no fun,
No money to burn


Only one way out,
To end it all.
I’ll pass the gun,
As I start to fall.
Hope someone stops me,
Not a chance.
To all those who screwed me,
Thanks



Pull back the safety,
Hear it click.
Barrel in mouth,
That’s the trick.
Tears in eyes,
Pull the trigger.
Goodbye darling,
Hope It's Quick.

1984

Be You!

Be your own man, son,
Don’t follow in my trail,
Just keep going forward,
Knowing you could fail.

Be your own man, son,
Don’t follow in my shoe,
Although life is hard
Make the most of what you do.

Be your own man, son,
Never ashamed of your tears,
Learn to accept that crying,
Is an aid to losing your fears.

Be your own man, son,
Head held high with pride,
Keep in your heart the knowledge,
I am always at your side.

Be your own man, son,
Through life remember have fun,
Remember I will always love you,

I’m proud to call you, MY SON!

2007

Lessons

Whatever you value most, in this world of material things,
Take it outside,
Shred it break it,
Rip it to bits,

In the sweet open air, of that place you call home,
Breathe deeply,
Break it shred it,
Smash it to pieces,

Stand well back, and face your destruction,
Then feel me,
Broken shredded
Beyond repair,

This is how I felt, as you crushed my life,
As you walked,
Uncaring Unfeeling,
Desolation the end result,

Wind blowing slight,
Pieces blown to the side,
Swept into a corner,
This how I moved, a jumble of pieces,

A Pulsating mass,
Radiating pain,
Pieces rejoining,
As time passes, like a dog licking its wounds,

Pensive movement,
Afraid of more pain,
Alone in the world,
Eyes re-awakening, to the other lives that carried on.

As I rebuild,
Take stock,
Begin to move forward,
I forever carry regret in mind, pain in my heart

2002

L F B

Love conquers fear
Fear hides from Love
Both perhaps impostors

Looking not for love
Forsaking even lust
Beguiling oneself

Leaving behind trust
Forgiveness now a burden
Blindly following heartache

Little now escaping
Fat chance of return
Bastard wins again


Life flits lightly
Following those uncaring
Begotten wretches, ill feeling


Laziness partner’s deceit
Fortune hates the coward
Bludgeoning into despair


Lust cannot quench
Feelings that need to be
Bewitching hearts plead freedom

2002